Ups and Downs

since my last post, i've graduated.
i've past my 1st interview. not that good, if i cant say that was terrible.
but i got another job offer, but i still contemplating about it for reasons i cant tell here.

it seems i only post here if i have a problem. maybe this is the reason why i create this blog. to share my thought n feeling when i cant say it to anybody.

i feel what i've done means nothing to people whom i love. are they take me for granted?
maybe i used to be, and i just felt ok about it, but now, when i fall into psychological problem (doesn't mean i'm crazy, dont even think about it!), i need their support. i WANT them to be here, cheer me up.
all i feel is loneliness
i want to escape from this time fence
can i?